I have been thinking lately about having a practice.
I believe that where you put your attention is your reality and is your life. I also believe that where you put your intention is where the divine meets you.
This began for me with the Artists Way by Julia Cameron and morning pages. Lately it has been showing up for me in thinking about Pilates practice and spiritual practice.
My challenge has been deciding what to practice. I have a million interests and ideas and instead of pursuing them I have fearfully avoided commitment. What if I try to write and I’m terrible? What if I try to move my body and I never improve? What if I try to talk to god and hear nothing back? What if I rely on the universe for abundance and I come up empty.? I now know these fears are foolish. I’m brave enough now to try. Let’s get over it and start showing up. Show up and meet god and have a chat and see.
To date, I have been practicing work and worry and obligation and pain. Scarcity of time, the feeling of being not enough, the perspective of being responsible for so many things I don’t have the power to impact.
Now I want to practice taking beautiful care of myself. Nourished and grounded, focused on flexible strength and sustainable health, connecting with people and being present. So, in practice:
I visited my grandparents yesterday. They are in their 90s and doing great. I intend to make that a more regular practice.
I’m going to pilates today (and I did yesterday and will again tomorrow). I’m getting so much stronger and it is a joy to move my body for one of the first times in my life.
I went to bed at 8:00 pm
I told a friend yesterday “I’m in the phase of life where socializing is scheduled around pilates, not the other way around.”
I will work on my consulting practice today and tomorrow. I still feel fear and scarcity around money and I don’t know how to solve for that other than earning more money.
I gave myself from yesterday afternoon to this afternoon to be entirely free of obligations. So far I spent most of that time asleep but we will see what today brings.
And here I am, brave enough to write a little piece to publish today.
I’m interested in knowing your intentional practices. Be well and true.
Nikki